Pilot.

In every episode of any series I have ever watched the first episode is always called "Pilot"...and I recently found out why- It means First.

So I have had this really weird urge to start a blog. I mean it's completely acceptable in today's generation to just write your thoughts and feelings for everyone to read, so here goes nothing!

Alright so I am still really new at this blogging thing, So if all my words seem jumbled, they are. 

I actually made this blog weeks ago, I just didn't know how to start posting and having it be part of the norm, you know? But I needed to figure it all out before I head out to Mexico.  I mean it wouldn't have been completely terrible if I figured everything out in Mexico.... But it also isn't terrible if I figure it out before I am in a foreign country. 

Mexico you ask? YES. I am going to Pachuca Mexico for 4 months. Story Time. SO I was actually almost done with my Mission papers, I had the strongest feeling that a mission was right for me- It was a strong feeling that I needed to be Serving The Lord.  I mean it had been My plan since as long as I can remember. 

Everything Changed my second year of College.

One day after I came home from a long day of classes, I get a call from an 801 number... Who from Utah would be calling me?? I answered anyway and was very surprised. 

"Is this Jessica?"

Yes......

"This is ILP(International Language Program)! You have been recommend to us- you are already in so fill out our application and we will get you an interview as soon as possible"

My first thought was Wow. I just answered the call of a lifetime. I seriously thought it was wayyy to good to be true. Dang solicitors. I kindly said thanks and said I would look into it and hung up. 

Later that night I was procrastinating homework and decided to actually go check out if this call I got was real. Let me tell ya- ILP is REAL. Like Completely and Totally LEGIT. As I contemplated and told my roommates about the whole situation I was blown away and torn apart all at the same time. I was going to go on a mission! Not some random place around the world to teach English. Then it hit me... I suddenly had to make a decision and fast. 

As I prayed the next couple of days I felt confident about BOTH a mission and ILP adventure. Great. Prayer after prayer I asked Heavenly Father 'which choice is better?' So Day after Day I continued to ask Which would be the better decision and each time I prayed I got the same answer! I was like 'REALLY? Why won't you tell me What do you want me to do?' I was actually getting really frustrated- Never before have I ever been so confused about what I should do. It wasn't until I was reading my Scriptures that I felt comfort. I was reading in 2 Corinthians 7:16 

"I rejoice therefore that I have confidence in you in all things."

IT HIT ME. Any decision I make God will have confidence I will do the right thing. It also made me realize that if God told me specifically what to do, then He would be taking away my agency. Both choices are an AMAZING opportunity. As I contemplated what I should do I decided that going abroad to teach English is an opportunity that was handed to me-Literally placed in my hands- It couldn't have worked out more perfectly. I mean I could always serve a mission when I return right? Right. It is always an option. 

Long Story short I am going to Mexico for 4 months to teach English to little ninos!! It will be an Adventure of a lifetime and I am BEYOND excited. I Honestly can't wait until I am there, I have to keep reminding myself that I have to take life one day at a time. Mean while, I have two jobs that keep me busy. It's not much of a summer working 16 hour days, but it will all be worth it in the end!